Monday, July 16, 2007

Will I Ever... Will There Even Be Ever.

Was on my third midnite shift last nite and it was indeed a hat-trick busy nite for me.(BusyBusyBusy!!!) Enrgy draining... mind bothering and blah blah blah... My grumbles and runts list juz goes on but, HELL YEAH... I juz love this job. Contradicting..?! Its juz wad my life is all about.

Slept at noon and awake by 1700hrs. My normal midnite routine. The difference today was that i was awaken by a dream or i shall say a nightmare. Depends how i look at it. Lemme summarise to u people wad its about.

Dreams of me 30 years down the road looking at life around me. Especially my family members and close friends. Seems like i've been away from Singapore for years or maybe God noes... Been in prison for awhile(Hehehehe!choi!!juz kidding!!",). Juz a stupid dream. Dunno wadever crime i've committed. Hahaha!! I look awkward and outta place in my dream. Everyone around me looks happy and seems like they're happy with their dearest one in life. For myself...im juz alone looking lost and lonely. Happy indeed surrounded by them. Will that be how my life is gonna be in the future? Will i ever get married? Will i ever wanna get married in the first place...

These are the questions that i ask myself when i wake up. "Will i ever fall in love again? Will there even be anyone(MUZ BE A GAL) who'll love me?

There goes my saga of quieries in life as a growing up Boy...
Heeeeee.....;)

iOta

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

aaaaa...apa susah kalau tak dapat cari mum got aline of calons for you hehehh......
don't worry larr bro with now non stop building up those muscles...looking like a hunk and that smile.....you'll surely find one......
theres surely someone out there for you juz waiting for the time.......

FrankieThai said...

OMG! You sound like Liah now!!!
:-P

inoemieself said...

Frankie...
U really make me sound as if im really really desperate leh... Im not lah...its juz the tireness that makes me sit up in bed and stoned after awaken by the dreams as i question myself these questions.. Not like i ask these questions to myself everytime... Hahaha...i kinda like being single but at times missed the days when u have them by ur side. Then...the loneliness overcomes me...hehehe!!

Ira(sis)
Wah wah... i was suprised to see ur comments on my blog but nevertheless, ur thoughts are welcome too. No boundaries raised between bloodlines...hehehe!!
You betta get urself prepared for ur so called big day. Dun juz spend ur off days out shopping or chilling around outside home or our old couple at home will start shooting their old thoughts out at us... HEADacCHE!!!

iOta.
iOta

Helmi said...

Things happen for a reason, thats what I always believe in.

FrankieThai said...

No lah, I'm not implying you are desperate.
You friend is right, with those "akan-datang" muscles and smile...soon lah!
For a start, if you can find a girlfriend, Faizal is always waiting...with his legs, eh I mean arms wide open! Hahahahaha.....
And I guess Helmi is right also, everything happen for a reason.
I'm already single for 10yrs+... but haven't gave up hope yet...not that I'm looking for 1 now, but if it comes it comes.

FrankieThai said...

eh typo error...i mean when you CAN'T find a girlfriend, Faizal will be waiting!

inoemieself said...

Frankie...
Thats my sis actually...not fren lah...
hahaha...